The Search Is Over
January 27, 2008
When I was a student at Columbia Theological Seminary one of the first courses that was required of incoming first year students – after they passed Greek – as what we called P – 111. It was course 111 in the Pastoral area of studies – thus the name P-111. The course was designed to help incoming students look at their interests, personality, and other areas of themselves so they could identify their strengths for ministry and the areas they may need to strengthen to be an effective minister. This was the course we were introduced to psychological ideas such as Erickson’s Maturity Cycle and helpful tools such as the Myers Briggs Personality Inventory. All these helped us understand ourselves better – our personality – our strengths and weaknesses – why we reacted to certain things the way we did and how we could react in a more positive way – why we related to people the way we did and how we might relate to people better.
Some of my classmates hated the course! They did not want to look at themselves – and did not want to understand why they related to others like they did or change they way they related to others. I, on the other hand, loved the course. I loved studying the maturity cycle and trying to figure out “what made me tick” – and I especially loved trying to figure out “what made others tick”. I was so enthralled with the ideas that – a couple of years later when I was still studying these things while taking a summer of Clinical Pastoral Education when Sally and I got married — I tried share with them with her. My method may not have been the best, however – one night after we had had a long “discussion” as I liked to call them – - some might call them arguments – I looked at her and said – in what I thought was a very loving tone of voice but she remembers it otherwise:
“You know – we are not in the stage of our relationship we need to be in!”
Let me give you some advice – while it may be good to discuss the “stage of your relationship” with your spouse – don’t try it after an argument – or a discussion – or whatever you call it. Her reaction was not what I expected – and lead to much further discussion – which I feel the entire dormitory we were living in may have heard! I learned quickly that while I can analyze people and situations, it is sometimes wise to pick the times I share my analysis – and sometimes wise to just keep it to myself altogether!
Anyway – the professor who lead the small group I was in for P 111 looked at me one day and said:
“Bill – you are a seeker – a searcher.
I knew he was right. I was always seeking – searching for new ways to do things, new ways to understand things, new information. I was – and to some extent still am – a seeker.
A lot of folks are that way –
Some are always looking for a new way to do something – always bragging about how they have found the “best thing” – but when you see them later they have found something else.
Seekers
Searchers
People with very little commitment to anything but searching – who go from one idea or philosophy or way of doing something to the next without sticking to anything for long. While being open to new ideas and new ways of doing things is important and even necessary for healthy living – continually searching – seeking – without truly committing to one thing is not a good thing.
I remember reading about a book about us North Americans entitled A Nation of Seekers. In many ways, that’s who we are as a country. We are a nation on the move. All of us are looking for something. Some make drastic changes readily – and are intense seekers. Others are on a more restrained journey. But to some extent many of us are seekers.
Seekers.
Searchers.
Seeking answers to many of life’s questions – answers to help us make sense out of life. A number of years ago, on public television, the distinguished scholar, Houston Smith, did a survey of the world’s great religions. He called it “The Long Search.” He concluded that many people were religious seekers – searchers – looking for answers for life in religion – and trying many different religions to find the answers. You may remember back in the 1970’s some church folks put bumper stickers on their cars that said in large letters: “I FOUND IT.” The implication was that they had been looking for something, and now they had at last found it. If you asked them, they might say the “it” that they had found was Jesus. My Dad threatened to put a bumper sticker on our car that read: “I NEVER LOST IT!”
This sense of being on a journey – or searching – or seeking – is a major characteristic for many people. Many feel that the important thing is to be on a journey — it is not important to ever arrive at a destination. In fact, for many people, anyone who stands up and proclaims, “I found it” is regarded as someone who detoured from the path too soon. The search is better than the destination.
A friend tells me that one week at Duke University they had a local businessman who gave a lecture to about 200 students entitled, “My Five Years with a Zen Master.” Two hundred students sat there in rapt attention for two hours, taking notes and nodding in agreement as he talked about the joys of studying Zen Buddhism. Two nights later, a graduate student gave a talk called, “My Semester in a Benedictine Monastery.” Again, about 200 students were in attendance, in rapt attention for over an hour — and they were the same students!
We are a nation of searchers.
Although intellectual curiosity is good, and though the Christian gospels all depict Jesus as inviting people to be on a journey, this image of our long search, our groping for God, is not at all what Christianity is all. It is not what Jesus was all about as the Bible tells it. The Bible is not so much a long record of our search for God; but it is the amazing account of the extraordinary lengths to which God but will go to search for us.
Our seeking God is not so much the issue in the Bible. The issue is God’s seeking us.
God is searching for us
You will notice this in the accounts of Christmas.
Hardly anyone in all the stories of Christmas was looking for God. They weren’t searching for something more meaningful in their lives. They were not looking for some way to find deeper significance. True, old Elizabeth and Zechariah are portrayed as those who are awaiting the fulfillment of the promise of God to Israel. But Mary, Joseph, the shepherds, what were they looking for? I suspect most of them, probably because they were people on the bottom, poor people, were simply trying to get by in life. They were searching for their daily bread, nothing more. The magi, the wise men, were on a search, following the star, looking for the king. But they are portrayed as those who did not know where to look. In their search, they naively go and ask King Herod where this new “king” can be found.
In our Gospel passage before us today Matthew begins to describe Jesus’ ministry. He writes that:
“people who have sat in darkness have seen a great light.”
That’s probably a good way to characterize our search. We are those who search, but our search is little more than a groping about in the darkness.
Seekers in the darkness
Searchers in the darkness
Do you think Andrew and Peter – James and John – were seeking – searching for – Jesus when He called them? That’s not how Matthew tells it. They were going about their daily business – fishing – not looking for God or for Jesus – just trying to make a living – but what happens? Jesus seeks for them. Jesus searches for them. Jesus finds them – and calls them to follow.
They have not sought for Jesus as much as Jesus has sought for them. They have not found Jesus as much as Jesus has found them. It’s that way in many stories of the Gospels. Many people seem to do almost anything to avoid Jesus — but Jesus is intrusive, resourceful, and relentless in reaching out people. That’s the way the Bible tells it.
Remember the time that he met a little man named Zacchaeus? Zacchaeus climbed up the sycamore tree in order to get a glimpse of the celebrity walking by. But then the celebrity stopped and said: “Zacchaeus, I’m going to come to your house for dinner.” Well Zacchaeus climbed down from the tree – and Jesus climbed into Zaccahaeus’ life.
Jesus told stories about a shepherd who goes and beats the bushes, goes to great lengths, just to find merely one lost sheep. He said the kingdom of God was like a woman who rips her house apart, searching from top to bottom until she finds her one lost coin.
Seeking
Searching
Jesus is constantly seeking and searching. God is constantly seeking and searching. The main requirement to get found by God, according to Jesus, is to be lost. Jesus is the Savior who just loves to seek and to save the lost.
Seeking
Searching
Now – I realize that this may go against the grain of why you think that you are here. You might think that you are here because you are searching for something. Maybe your life is rich and rewarding in many ways. But in other ways, there is flatness about things, sometimes an emptiness. So you come to church, hoping that something will be said or sung that will help you in your search.
Well—that is not the way the Bible tells it.
According to scripture, you are here because you have been sought, called, summoned. You are here because God has reached in, grabbed you and put you here.
God is seeking
God is searching
It is not so much that you are seeking and searching for God – but God who is seeking and searching – for you! And when you hear stories about the long search — God’s long search for you – it should condition you to pay attention.
Notice those little coincidences in your life, those strange happenings, and those thoughts, that you find you have difficulty putting into the context of other thoughts. Perhaps all of this is part of God’s continuing attempts draw you to Him.
We have a tendency to be “in the dark” many times. We have a propensity to look in all the wrong places, to want all the wrong things. God could not leave us to our own devices – but God comes to us — God calls to us.
Just like Jesus came to and called Peter — Andrew – James — John – Jesus comes to us and calls us as we are going about our daily lives. Christianity is not so much a religion of discovery as it is a religion of calling. It is God calling us that makes our relationship with God possible. There is seeking and searching – but not us seeking and searching for God – but God seeking and searching for us. So keep looking over your shoulder as you go through life. Keep being attentive to the strange little things, the odd, glorious things that happen to you.
Friends – your search for God – and God’s long search for you – can be over. You may not have found God – but God has found you. God knows you. God calls you. God wants you to follow Him.
The question is – are you ready for the search to be over?
Are you ready to give up trying everything but God – trying every way to live but God’s ways – trying every way to find contentment and fulfillment in life but God’s ways to find thee things?
Are you ready to give up on your search for God – and let God be successful in His search for you?
Do you want to keep searching for God – for life – for meaning – on your terms – even though you’ll never find it – or are you ready to let God find you on His terms – and give you life – meaning – and purpose?
Friends – the beautiful fact is that God is searching for you. God wants to give you life – salvation – meaning – and purpose. You’ll never find these things if you search for them on your own – no matter how long you try. Doesn’t it just make sense to quit searching for something you’ll never find – and let God find you?
God is searching for you. You can stop – you can let God find you – and God’s search for you – and your search for life and meaning and purpose – can be over.
God is searching for you.
Let God find you – and your search – and God’s – will be over.
Amen